Monday, November 13, 2017

The moment i thought that things are okay,
was also the moment i realized,
that things are not okay at all.

that i just deny my thoughts,
denying the fact that i even knew everything since the very beginning.

Saturday, September 9, 2017

what?

that's how life goes.
things could change anytime.
bisa jadi satu hari kita baik-baik saja, lalu menjadi orang yang berbeda di kemudian hari.
bisa jadi hari ini kita merencanakan masa depan, lalu hari berikutnya kita sadar bahwa masa depan kita bukan untuk dirangkai bersama.

the only thing that is constant in life, is life that constantly change everytime.
and yeah, basically life is about accepting things the way they are.
be strong, dear self; for life is getting tougher and tougher everday.

Wednesday, September 6, 2017

a little hi after a while

Surabaya, 6 September 2017
It's been almost two years since the last time i visited this place.
Well, but some things remain the same.
Such as the temperature here, that stay as hot as it was. Kayaknya memang harus diterima yah panasnya kayak gini lol.
Or, me who is still amazed by how this city's urban planning be so good. Surabaya dengan banyak jalan-jalan besar yang rapi dan tertata, juga gedung-gedung tinggi tapi gak se crowded Jakarta.
Well, I've only been here for two times, but I'm starting to love this city as well. Kayak...nge fans aja gitu hahaha se bagus itu kotanya. Soon, will be adding Surabaya to my list of favorite city after bandung & bogor.
But yeah, some things change too here. The memories, the people, and so on.

I may visited surabaya for only two times.
But I guess, it feels like i've been here for so many times, that this past few years, i started to knew some places that I've never been to in here...... Which I just knew some of them today and last night. That i knew some people here, whom i've never seen in real before..... And i just got the chance to see them a few hours ago.
Well, thanks to you.
Surabaya brings so much memories, to me. Though there may be some sad memories, i think Surabaya will bring me some happy memories too, hopefully.

And yeah, here i am writing this in my hotel room, only a few kilometers away from you, yet I'm still hoping that things will go back to normal sooner, just like it used to be. Missing you and everything in between.

Monday, September 12, 2016

A random thought.

I used to think 'how could two people who used to be together, end something that they began themselves? how could two people used to love each other suddenly became two strangers after a break up? why do people end a relationship? don't they remember that feeling they used to have when they began this?'

But as time goes by, i can find the answer by myself. Because they just can't. They just don't meant to be together right now. But they may be back together in another phase of life later, or not together forever. One thing i learned, that they two may become strangers to each other, but they won't ever forget how they used to feel. They may forget things they did, but not the way they used to feel to each other.

It bothers me how this happened to almost everyone. How people can't just let go of the feeling they used to have. But yeah, that's how life goes by. We just need to accept how the universe works and set things up for us.

But well, it happened to almost everyone. Almost.

Tuesday, August 16, 2016

After a while.

wow, it's been 4 months since the last time i posted something here.
sedang h-6 kuliah, tingkat 3. wow. wow. just........wow!
padahal udah libur 3 bulan, tapi tetep aja ga kerasa hu ingin di bogor terus bawaannya.
lalu 4 hari kedepan integrasi.
kemudian dimulailah kehidupan semester 5 yang (katanya) ganas.
baiklah segitu ajah curhat di sela-sela ke hectican ini.
dah.










..dan walaupun setelah 4 bulan, hal yang dirasakan masih tetap sama seperti saat post sebelum ini dibuat.Then should we end this now?

Sunday, April 10, 2016

Halo.

Ya, halo.
Jumpa lagi disini. Masih di kolom yang sama.
Dan sayangnya, masih dengan kekhawatiran yang sama pula.
Sekali lagi; sampai kepada titik dimana kembali pada masa yang sama.
Namun kali ini, semesta membawa segala hal menjadi lebih rumit dari biasanya.
Terlebih, dengan hadirnya mereka yang kian lama, semakin membuat sadar,
.............bahwa sejatinya, apakah hakikat memiliki, jika diri ini bukanlah milik kita sendiri?